Once my heart felt moments of sheer pleasure,
At the very thought of your name.
But now, with each passing moment,
Even your initials bring pain!
Why did I ever look at you that way?
Knowing full well that nothing would come of my thoughts.
Now, every time I see your face,
Sadness, pain, hurt, and anger are wrought.
Just when I think the pain is over,
Here comes another detail in the awful story.
Will it ever cease, will it ever stop?
How long must my heart ache, bleed, and worry?
I am spiraling down a long road that seems to know no end.
My heart hurts and tears are all my eyes can see.
I am spiraling down a long road that I hope doesn't curve to often.
My stomach is empty and my anger has almost consumed me.
I pray each day that this anguish would cease,
But my prayers seem to not be answered.
I cry each night that my heart would be free,
But it seems as if my tears don't hold the answer.
Lord, give me the strength to ride this spiral.
I don't know if it will ever stop.
Lord, help me hold steadfast.
I just hope this spiral down doesn't make my heart drop.Labels: 2003, Emotions, Lust |
